sometimes we have revelations out of nowhere. one revelation i had last night--i have no feelings for jc. if i saw him, i don't think i'd care. the other revelation was this morning when i woke up. william and i will never be friends and i think i'm okay with that. it's for the best. i think this whole time i secretly believed we'd be friends again at some point but now i really don't think it's going to happen if it hasn't already. the sooner i come to these conclusions, the better. i've moved forward and i hope i continue in this direction.