i love the feeling of being drunk. that dizzy feeling after you lie down and close your eyes. and when you open your eyes, the world is spinning. you don't care about the consequences of your actions--you're just in the moment. it's probably the only time i'm in the moment. the only time i'm not thinking about the cost of my actions. i can really be myself and do what i feel--what i want. the things my mind doesn't let me do when i'm sober. i know i'm making mistakes but when else will i get the chance to make these mistakes? it can't be when i'm 40--it has to be now while i'm young. it makes me feel alive. maybe it's not a sign of maturity but why does it matter? life isn't about being mature--it's about being yourself in whatever stage and whatever moment you're in.