they say true love comes around but once in a lifetime. if that's true, i don't want to miss it but i feel like i might because i don't know what love feels like. i know what it is to love and be loved but what is it to be in love? all i know is what i've had...what i've felt and i feel like it's enough. if i could feel those feelings again, i'd be satisfied. you think you feel one way about someone and no one will ever compare and then another person comes along and proves you wrong. i've been infatuated before...it's like living with blinders on. you think you're finally experiencing life...you're seeing everything so clearly and then someone else comes along and takes off those blinders and you realized that you were only seeing a reflection of what you wanted to see. now, you could really see. there are those guys who put blinders on you to deceive you and then there are those guys that take them off for you and show you what you've been missing all along. is feeling hurt really worth letting go of that? i've felt it before after all...i've had people hurt me countless times and i've forgiven them seven times seven thousand times. but when you really love something, you're supposed to let it go right? if it comes back to you...its yours. but also at the same time, you don't want to let it go because you don't think it's yours. it's heart lies with someone else and you know it may never come back. that's the hardest part of letting go. i feel like nothing has ever been mine. it's always gone back to something...someone else. and i don't want to love something that doesn't love me back. if someone does something to intentionally hurt you or does something selfish and doesn't look back, did they ever love you in the first place? you have to ask yourself that. and if that's what you want...go.