i had a dream last night that william texted me apologizing for everything and asking to be friends again. Then i woke up and realized how sad it all is. I feel like i'm constantly harping on about this but it REALLY is hard to let this friendship go. although we didn't have much in common, we were able to relate to each other is a particular way that made being friends with him easy (while it was easy, which seems like a brief point in time now). everything got complicated early on. when we first met, it was in film class and he just randomly came up to me and introduced himself then asked me to accompany him to the cafeteria. that evening, he invited me over to his place and we had wine on the porch. i thought even then that he liked me but i ignored it and so began this friendship based on ulterior motives. yet i'd like to think that we were truly friends throughout the past 3+ years. i still don't have the heart to delete his facebook page. it's the only connection we have left. i think i'm just going to have to work harder at this whole letting go of people thing. but for now, i'm a sentimental idiot.