our own sin will lead to our demise. the apocalypse may not come tomorrow but it's coming. researchers talk about the intensity of hurricanes, fires, droughts, famine, and many other disasters that will be a result of global warming. all of these things are mentioned in the book of revelations in the bible. then there are the countless wars that have been taking place and are ever so increasing. all these things stem from our greed, our pride, our sinful nature. greed leads to the increase of greenhouse emissions which are leading to global warming. pride and the desire for wealth and power are behind the very essence of war. it's not like God's gonna set the world on fire one day--we're going to do it ourselves but He has warned us of its coming.

i've been trying to be more in tune with God and have been working on improving my spiritual life. in doing so, i am increasing my faith and that, in itself, is an uphill battle in a world that tries to distract us and repel us from seeking God--of seeking a purpose. it distracts us with diamonds, and handbags, and televisions, and the millions of other things the world tries to sell to us. our television promises that if we buy the latest and greatest, we will have more friends, more fame, more more more. "You adulterous people, don't you know that friendship with the world is hatred toward God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God" (James 4:4).

i've been a friend of the world for far too long. i've fallen victim to a life of materialism and superficiality. i've become more and more selfish. i can no longer afford to be distracted. i have been asleep and i cannot sleep any longer. there is too much going on in the world. too much going on outside of my own life. i'm living in the darkness--being lead by others who cannot see. God is shaking me. He has never left me as He promised. i get so caught up in work stuff, in school stuff, in friendship stuff and ignore the only one who matters--GOD. i have a feeling my career doesn't matter as much as i think it does. like i mentioned in a previous post, it's not always about the end result, its about the journey. how am i living my life? what am i contributing?

i have been an angry and bitter person for too long. always making statements of forgiveness without ever really fulfilling those promises. all i can do is cause the least amount of harm, increase my goodness and love towards others, and seek Him fully. i tried to avoid religion--i tried to run but He said to me, it's not about those things, it's about our relationship. "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life" (John 3:16). it's not whosoever goes to church or whosoever prays all the time and holds true to tradition--it states whosoever believes in Christ. for those who believe, there must be action. as God states, a faith without action is a dead faith. we don't do things to be saved but we are saved then WANT to do things for God's glory.

even when i ran from religion, He found me. i listen to secular music and feel movement in my soul. i read secular books and am reminded of how real God is and my faith. i watch secular tv and hear news of the truth--the apocalypse that is to come. it's too late to turn back, both my mind and my heart tell me that God is true and that He is seeking me out. I felt Him in my childhood, in my youth, and i'm starting to feel Him again now. i've seen the things He has done in my life. He has taken me out of the depths of my agony and has placed me in His right hand.