when you lose a really good friend, you regret it and i don't regret it.

i think people often regret people they've lost in their lives. good friends, good people, bad friends, horrible people and sometimes its for no reason at all. but i think that when you lose a good friend--a good person, you regret it and i don't regret it. i don't regret any of the people i've lost. there are some good friends that i've lost in the mix of it all but that was long long a go and as weird as it may sound, i think those friends served their purpose so i don't regret their loss. i had childhood friends who contributed to who i am today but if we met now, we'd have nothing to talk about but the past and there's no point in that--i need people who can talk to me about the future and who can be a part of mine. i found out today that kristie and robbie got divorced (shocker...). i really hope she doesn't try to pull her boo hoo empathize for me crap again because i'll just laugh in her face. i know it sounds mean and unlike me but she's really had her fair share of chances at redemption and has only proven herself unworthy time and time again. she's royally screwed just about everyone i know so i have no empathy. it's like having empathy for the devil.

i don't miss her. the best thing she ever did was stop being my friend because i might not have had the guts to let her go and she helped me out ever so graciously. the worst thing she did was try to re-enter my life last year but i shut the door in her face (metaphorically). if robbie tries to contact me, i'll have to change my number (sigh).

what i've learned the hard way, i guess, is that no matter how much you try to hold on to certain people, you just have to let them go because they're only in your life for a certain purpose and after they've served their purpose, they're useless. then there are the friends for life--the friends you'll have till you die and they're the only ones that matter and they're worth fighting for. you don't have to worry about the rest because they'll fall by the wayside but your true friends will never leave you.