i never realized that i wasn't the relationship type until recently. i mean i know i never had a relationship past short-term dating but i still thought that relationship person was in there somewhere just waiting to be awakened. now that it has been awakened, i find myself wanting it to go back to sleep. i dont think im saying ill never be ready for one but i certainly think it will be an uphill battle. i have all sorts if guards up and only i can break them down. it makes it easy to become good friends but hard to get past that point. i guess thats why ive been more intimate with guys I didn't care about.