everything yet nothing is mine. i look around my room and see just stuff..things, material items that don't matter. pictures of friends that once were and still are. in life, you can have everything you want and end up with nothing. what good is everything we accumulate? people, money, and things? one day it will all be gone, everything and all we will be left with is our soul. there's eternal value in that. i wish i realized that more often. i feel like i'm living my life on empty just waiting to fill myself up with something that won't make me feel so empty but i know there's only one thing that can fill that hole. my relationship with God has always been a rocky one and i've always been to blame for it. i've always been so selfish--always wanting more but never being satisfied. happiness is temporal; just when you think you've found it, it's snatched out of the palm of your hands, yet joy transcends situation, place, or time. i see the weakness in human frailty and look toward God to make me strong.