up until this point, i held onto the fantasy that william and i would one day be friends again. i knew it would take time to heal but i didn't know just how long so i waited. his new relationship with this unidentified girlfriend was a wake up call for me. it made me realize that this relationship might never heal and if i was going to make moves, it would have to be now. so i sent out my message--spilled out my heart and told him how i felt. to my surprise, the window of opportunity had already closed--he didn't want a relationship. he didn't respond. or maybe he never wanted to be friends and now that he has a girlfriend, he doesn't need me to fill that role in his life. i don't think he ever wanted to be friends with me. i was just a holding place for his future girlfriend. that's more than an arrow to my heart...an arrow can be pulled out and the wound heals over time. i feel like an anchor's gone through my heart. an anchor holds you down--prevents you from moving forward. prevents you from healing. how do you remove an anchor? and even if you do remove it, how much longer does it take to heal from an anchor?