i feel like such an absolute fool for trusting him again. i've given a handful of people second chances and they've all thrown it back in my face. why is he even trying to contact me anymore? i won't let anyone test my limits; i won't budge. anyone who hurts me will face severe consequences for their actions against me.

if he says he cares just one more time, i'm gonna stab him in the eye! i don't care if he cares. i'm shutting people out forever. i might as well be detach myself from any human emotion. i'm not replacing jc with william, i'm just eliminating both of them. it's not that i hate guys, it's just that i will never trust a single one. they always say one thing and do another; they're all unstable; they can't form attachments; they're selfish. i'll just stick to making out in bars and i'm not taking down any names.

i think that's healthy.