i don't wear my feelings on my sleeve. it's really hard for me to show someone i care for them in that traditional way of telling them. i cringe at the words "i love you." it's just not who i am. not that i don't love; hell, i love certain people to the point of self-sacrifice but those words rarely enter my vocabulary. just ask my parents. the people who love and raised me. i have a hard time saying it even to them and they freely say it to me all the time. i guess i have my own funny way of showing people i care about them. it's 2 parts sarcasm, 1 part teasing, and 4 parts action. i feel like my actions say it better than i ever could with mere words. any of my friends could tell you that i'm always there for them--loving and supportive but i just never say those words. i guess sometimes my pride gets in the way too and it's hard to admit to certain people in my life that i actually care for them. just yesterday william asked me if i missed him and i said "it's been a while since i've seen you so i guess." i'm not sure why he asked me that but needless to say, there was no response back. wrong answer? yeah...i'm sure it's not what most people would like to hear back but it's just how i am and i think he gets that...i hope. i have noticed when one of my girlfriends or family members says "i love you," i have no problem saying "you too!" in response. not sure if that makes sense even as a response but i think they get the point. it's just something about those words...i'm not really a touchy-feely sort of person at all but i have no problems hugging my parents when i need to. but other people...not so much. yes, people give me grief over it but hey! i can't change who i am. see, i'm VERY in tune with my feelings and when i find myself caring for someone (and feel that it's scary), i make up for it but being extra standoffish/non-touchy and make a lot of mean comments toward them. i know it's not right but that's just how it is. i feel bad for the few that bare the brunt of that but they're mostly guys and when i feel like there's that iffyness in our relationship, i have to draw the lines again and that's how i do it. i guess i'm just mean to guys really (but only in certain situations).