After everything happened and we hadn't spoken for some time, I left for Europe. It was my summer semester abroad. I bought you a lighter. Looking back on it, that lighter was a symbol of the hope I had in our friendship to overcome obstacles. The fact that I even bought it with you in mind indicates to me that I truly believed regardless of circumstances that we would be friends again. But I still have that lighter. It sits on a lonely table in my room. I had hope in someone that was hopeless. Someone who had an agenda and a plan that didn't involve being my best friend. I thought about giving away that lighter but I bought it with you in mind and I'll always know it was meant for someone else. So I just kept it like the pain you caused me. That's also sitting on a lonely table in my room.