It's strange to feel so connected to someone yet so distant and apart from them. Should actual physical distance create such a disconnect if the connection is real? Maybe it's an unavoidable reality. Other people who are closer physically (stand ins--replacements) can only fill a temporary void unless there's something deeper that really compares to the strong connection you have with another. At the same time, there's a comfort you can find in those that don't matter because you feel you have nothing to lose in that moment. The only problem is that you have nothing to gain and only that important person to lose because no one can wait forever. Life can't stop for anyone and we can't expect it to.