i know i've had a difficult relational history because i tend to push people away right when there is an attachment building but i never realized how harsh it came off until now. i guess you only realize what it feels like when it's being done to you. i think so far, i've made wise decisions on who to eliminate from my life and who to keep. the people who are in my life always make an effort. they show me that they care rather than blurting empty words and promises. that's how trust is built. and that's how i decide if people are worth keeping around because i put a lot of effort into my relationships and i'm' not going to put in any effort when i can clearly see that the other party doesn't care. that's why brittany is gone. i told her she wasn't a good friend and out she went. i'm proud of my decisions and i feel like i will continue making good choices and eliminating the right people.