when i get into difficult situations, i mostly fight. but sometimes...sometimes i run. and no one will ever understand that, or me. they'll think i hate them--i'm angry or i dont' care. but it's mostly the opposite. i might be hurt or angry but i run because i care too deeply and can't handle the pain. sometimes you love something so much it hurts and i'm not as tough as i look. and in the end, good people get hurt but mostly, i hurt myself. and people don't forgive me--they don't want me back in their lives and i can't blame them because i don't want to infringe on anyone's happiness. i don't think i'll ever find someone to fully love me and that's what scares me the most. i'm not perfect, i can't be--and i hope one day i can find someone who will accept that. guys come and they go like ocean waves--only more painful. i can't handle anyone new because i haven't overcome my past demons. being alone is the most comforting and most lonely thing in the world. maybe all i'll ever be is comfortable and alone...i don't mean to be mean, i'm just trying to protect something that's about to crumble...i'm trying to protect myself and i'm more vulnerable than i'd like to admit. i'm not perfect like you think. maybe if your expectations weren't so high we could be together.